I've got good news(well...at least for me)!!! It turns out that we WILL be getting a maid after all. But the ones who will be paying will be my mother and my grandmother(don't worry...she has A LOT of money...you'd be shocked). I don't expect my worthless "uncles" and "auntie" to be grateful or anything. They're probably thinking that there's somebody who's looking after their mother who's not them. Well...I'm not gonna upset myself over them...the point is that the mental stress will soon be over. The maid will be coming some time next week I think.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
7:58 PM
Library...after how long?
So today, I went to the library after my organ class at TM. It has been like...actually I donno how long it has been since I've been to the library. I think it was the middle of last year. I went to the library because I wanted to borrow Angel. I've finished downloading all the 5 seasons and I'm still not satisfied, so I wanna read some of the books.
The reason I kinda stopped going to the library is because, I started buying books instead of borrowing. At first, it was...buy because the library didn't have the books, but the addiction of buying books caught on. I even have the whole series of "The Wheel of Time" by Robert Jordan. So far there's 11 books from the series and altogether, they cost around $500++. A lot of money yah? I had to have some of the books special ordered because Borders ran out of stock. I feel very proud to have the whole series. There's just a sense of satisfaction when you've bought a book and have it displayed =D
Thursday, April 26, 2007
11:39 PM
Exercise!!!
Today was our(Me, Shereen, Kelyn, Yu En, Cai Ling and Shuyu) first time exercising together. We went to the school track and ran. I ran 2.4km, Shereen and Shuyu did 4 rounds...Shuyu bluffed us all when she said that she could only manage 1 round. Cai Ling and Yu En did three...they weren't feeling too good. But its ok girls, it'll get better after some more practices. Kelyn on the other hand, was our spectator. She had her period so she didn't wanna run.
We really had fun, especially when I made them do some leg workouts. Kelyn has a video of it all..hehe. Its great that they are taking the initiative to exercise on Monday, without me asking everyone. I won't be joining them however. Because I have ngaji in the morning. But hopefully, if nothing clashes with our weekly exercise, we'll be fully prepared for NAPHA in July.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
11:22 PM
Hurt
Today was a really, really long day. We started school at 10am and ended at 5:20pm...was supposed to end at 6 but Mr Satha pitied us because we looked tired. The reason why we end so late and yet have only 2 lessons is because we have a 4-HOUR break from 12nn.
We had our AGM(Annual General Meeting) for GV today at 6(but actually started at 6:30). So today I came back home especially late. I reached home at around 10pm. While waiting for the train at Clementi, I realized that I would be really late coming home and that I'd be having classes at 8am the next day, I called my mother and wanted to ask her if she could pick me up from Simei MRT station. Well, my brother picked up the phone instead and when he asked my question for me to my mother, my father heard too and just told my brother to tell me to go home by myself. I felt really hurt.
Now, usually, when I know that I'll be coming home late(meaning at night), I'd ask my mother if she could pick me up from school. I don't feel at ease coming home so late at night alone. But she won't because its too far and there won't be any more good parking spaces left when she gets back. So usually, she'll pick me up from Simei. It really came as a slap in the face when my father said bluntly to go home by myself. If you don't sympathize with me, just think, if you're so used to receiving something from someone close to you, and then one day, he/she just refused to give you anymore.
Later, the hurt turned to anger towards my father. I know that it is just a small and petty thing, but I just felt really hurt. He of all people who is very protective of his daughters wanted me to go home alone at night. When I got home, I didn't even bother calling him. I just went straight to my room. And my mother scolded me for being rude. I know...I'm in the wrong...but just don't hurt my feelings.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
5:43 PM
Continuation
Well its nice to be back...partly influenced by my sister who keeps reading her friends' blogs and Syafiqah who asked me whether I had a blog of my own and has one herself. To make my long absence story short, I was simply lazy and felt a bit discouraged that people weren't reading my blog. But that shouldn't be the case right? You write for yourself, not for others.
Its the 3rd yr now...time just flew by. I'm really gonna miss poly. But I promise that I'll go back once in a while. So far, I've only felt attached to Ngee Ann Poly, not even Ngee Ann Sec. I guess I'm just closer to my friends in poly than I was with my sec sch friends.
Anyway, a lot of things have happened, but I'm only gonna write about one. And that being the issue of my grandmother. My family(meaning my mother), and me sometimes, have been taking care of my grandmother for about 4 yrs now. And I tell you, it is really mind-taxing. She's now wheelchair-bound. I really don't mind helping her get to one point of the house to the other, dressing her up, bathing her and helping her to the toilet. But the thing that I can only describe as "mental torture" is her incessant moans of self-pity.
It pains her leg when she has to stand and walk. So everytime she gets up to sit on the wheelchair or has to go to the toilet, she will begin her moaning. When I say everytime, I'm not exaggerating. Everyday alone is enough, but this is SEVERAL times a day. My mother has tried to advice her and told her to think of other people who are in a worse condition than hers. But it never registers. She will keep quiet for a while, and continue again. She's already senile. I don't want to write down what my grandmother says during her moans because I think it will be too rude. I know what everybody will say, "Be patient, after all, she's your grandmother, you should respect her". But before you all judge me, I just wanna say this, you are not in my position, so you have no idea what I'm going through.
Recently, my mother decided to get a maid for my grandmother because she's finally had it. We were gonna put my grandmother in my uncle's house(it's his responsibility in the first place but he couldn't take care of her due to MANY problems, which my mother says that can never be solved). BUT the whole plan failed because of the bunch of worthless and ungrateful pile of shit my mother has for siblings. They had to come up with $500 a month for the maid. My mother said that they should split the cost, $100 each. Well, NOBODY could pay or rather, to me DIDN'T wanna pay. It's just $100 A MONTH. We can afford $500 a month, but how can my mother just take that amount of money every month off my father's hard-earned money?
What pisses me off so much is that first, they didn't even bother to take care of my grandmother or even asked if my mother needed any help. They just took advantage of the fact that there's somebody taking care of their mother. Secondly, they didn't give her money for my grandmother's expenses like her medical check-ups. Thirdly, 2 of my mother's siblings who owe her lots of money still haven't paid up for yrs now.
I just really hate my uncles and aunties now. My mother really doesn't deserve them. She's really under a lot of stress without them making things worse for her. The only consolation that I can take is that at least my family's financial situation is better than all of them combined. I only wish for my mother's happiness.
This is me
BORN: 7 July 1987
AGE: Do the math
LIKES: Cats...like duh...my blog url??? And SUPERNATURAL!!!!
DISLIKES: Hypocrites
These are just the basic things about me...if u wanna know more, just ask me.