Reunion
Today is the second day of Hari Raya. And every year, during this second day, my father's side of the family will come to our house, especially when it falls on a weekend. I don't like it during these times because I'm not close to my "other" family at all. I don't really talk to them, and they don't really talk to me. So, most of the time, I stay inside my room. There was one time that I used to talk to one of my cousins, but somehow, we grew apart and didn't talk anymore. But this year, to me pleasant surprise, she talked to me again!And so far, I've found out that we have one thing incommon. ANIME. She especially liked Rurouni Kenshin, so I lent her one of the movies I bought in Malaysia. She got so excited when I said she could borrow it. Well, at least I know that we're not strangers anymore. Now that the ice is broken, I hope it stays that way. Because there was a time that I actually considered cutting off relations with my "other" family when my father passed away. I'm so bad right? Hopefully, things will change.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
12:47 AM
Let go
I just had a very long talk with my mother. She told me one thing about myself that I didn't realize I'd been doing all this time. Which was to keep my anger bottled up. She told me to change because that anger can destroy me one day. And then I understood why I'd been bottling up me anger. It's because I don't like talking it out with her because I know that I'd end up crying my heart out, which I did just now.
She told me that if I ever need to let out, write it in a diary, and not here. The reason why I chose to write some of the personal things here is because partly, I wanted people to know the truth. But my mother already assured me that people DO know the truth. I don't have to worry. I can fight for my mother only if and when that certain someone confronts her.
My chest feels so much lighter now that I've talked to my mother. She really understands what I'm going through. I'm very grateful to her.
But don't worry guys, I'm still going to keep this blog alive. It's just that any personal things that may happen won't be written here anymore. So the probability of you seeing the swear words is very low.
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