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Sunday, July 01, 2007

11:25 PM

Bad day

Man...today was a bad day for me. It was in the afternoon. I had terrible cramps again. And what was worse was that I was locked out of the house because I didn't bring the house keys and nobody was home. My mother and brother were at Giant and my sister was at Pasir Ris Library. Knowing that my sister wouldn't be willing to come all the way back, I had only my mother to depend on. Unfortunately, I had to wait for a long while for them to come back because there was a huge crowd at Giant.

The cramps wasn't so bad at first. I could still handle it, so I went to Tampines Mall and went to Isetan. Finding nothing to do, I went back home again, thinking that they would be on the way back or close to doing that, since my mother told me to wait for an hour, and it was nearing 1 hour.

BUT...they were still shopping around. So I just decided to wait for them at the void-deck. At that point of time, the cramps started to gradually worsen, but I could still bear them. I started to zikir to calm myself down. After about 15 min later, I called them again and my mother said that they were only queuing up. I waited and waited until my cramps really, and I mean REALLY got so painful that I broke out into a cold sweat. I couldn't take it anymore until I whispered out "Ya Allah" over and over again, and just hoped that I wouldn't vomit all over the place. If there weren't people sitting at the void-deck also, I would've said "Ya Allah" out loud. And luckily, not long after, my mother and brother came back. They didn't see me even though I called out (I was hoping that my brother or mother would help me walk), so I had to force myself to get up and drag my feet up to the lift lobby.

When I got into the house I just dropped everything I carried and went straight to the toilet. I had to do business. Now this may sound funny, but if you've had cramps before, you'd know that you'll feel like shitting all the time. Those are for normal cramps. My cramps can get so excruciatingly painful that I can vomit. So, when I have these especially painful cramps, I'll get nausea, diarrhoea, and plus the cramps of course. And vomitting is not only just one time, and that's it, I'll feel better, but it'll happen a few times. People who've seen me in this state have told me that I looked pucat.

But luckily, this time, I managed to quell down the vomit. I kept my nose covered so that I wouldn't have to smell anything and I zikir (in my heart) and begged Allah to make me feel better. And I did, after I don't know how long I spent in the toilet.

I went to bed for a while but woke up because I felt cold, even though the weather was hot. My brother switched off the fan for me but I still couldn't go back to sleep. So after that, I asked my mother to rub my stomach with some ointment. That helped a lot and I felt loads better. I still haven't really recovered though. Even as I'm typing all of these down, I still have a slight cramp and feel a bit nauseous. But don't worry, this isn't the first time I've experienced this kind of cramps, nor will it be the last.